“Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland.” (NIV)
It seems that I need these words in front of me constantly...
I am horrific with change. Specifically - moving. Absolutely do not enjoy it, and do not really deal with it in a rational manner. It takes me a good year to feel comfortable with a new city or state, and even then, I miss Tennessee and my home in Nashville CONSTANTLY. That being said, God has been very gracious to me by leading me to teach. I truly believe that if I had not taught in New Orleans, and if I was not teaching now in Jackson, I would probably be a bit depressed! Observing countless seventh grade social issues and family situations every day is a constant reminder of how I have been blessed!
Earlier this week, I was in a serious rut. Each day I felt like crying as I left work (okay, maybe I did cry!). Warren is studying for the second section of the CPA exam, so I have been alone grading papers at night. Last night I had a Junior League meeting and heard a group of girls talking about going to dinner afterwards, and I just felt my eyes welling up because I wanted that SO badly! There is something so disconcerting and depressing about not having girlfriends around whom you have known for years. I think women just need that companionship and comraderie. I got into my car and just lost it. Not my best moment.
This morning I unlocked my classroom and found a note that had been slipped under my door. It read: "Mrs. Herring, You are not my teacher but thank you for always smiling at me in the hallway. It means a lot to me because I am new this year and I haven't made a lot of friends. I heard you were new too, and so it made me feel better. I hope you have a great week."
Insert: ugly cry.
"See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?"
God, help me to see what You ARE doing, and not focus on what I wish You would do.
Well first of all i love what you have done with the place :)Your new blog is fabulous. And second of all, i am so beyond proud of you for moving to two different cities,getting great jobs, and making friends! I know that it seems hard right now but think about your first year in Nola...it probably took some time too. You are an amazing friend and girls in MS will see that soon! I hate that it is so hard right now but it sounds like you have a great perspective and God is going to move in your life with you so open right now. I love you and i miss you like crazy! Dont worry...you arent missing much in TN..we are all stuck inside cause of this snow!
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